I turn in every direction and find myself facing the same emptiness—a rootlessness that defines my existence. There is no patch of earth I can point to and call my ancestral home, no single place that holds the weight of generations in its soil. This absence of geographic identity shapes how I move through the world, coloring interactions and framing perceptions in ways both subtle and profound.
In an age of unprecedented connectivity, where technology promises to bridge continents and cultures, I find myself strangely disconnected from the very concept of belonging. We can video call across oceans, yet the digital threads that bind us feel weightless compared to the deep roots others seem to possess. This paradox defines modern rootlessness: surrounded by connections yet feeling fundamentally untethered.
The experience manifests in small moments—filling out forms that ask for “hometown,” meeting new people who inquire about origins, watching documentaries about tight-knit communities where everyone knows their place in the historical tapestry. Each encounter becomes a gentle reminder that my story lacks this geographical anchor, this sense of continuity with a specific landscape.
This isn’t about wanderlust or some romantic notion of freedom. The rootlessness I describe carries a different quality—a quiet awareness of missing something fundamental that others take for granted. It’s the recognition that while some people draw strength from centuries of connection to a place, my inheritance is one of movement, adaptation, and perpetual recalculations of home.
Yet within this absence lies an unexpected freedom. Without the weight of ancestral expectations tied to a specific location, I’ve learned to craft identity through experiences rather than geography. The lack of a traditional homeland becomes space to define what belonging means on my own terms—through relationships, values, and the stories I choose to carry forward.
This rootlessness also provides a unique lens through which to observe the world. When you don’t belong anywhere specifically, you develop the ability to belong everywhere in a certain way—adapting to local customs while maintaining the perspective of an observer. It creates a dual consciousness: participating in communities while always recognizing the temporary nature of that participation.
Perhaps what I’m describing isn’t so much rootlessness as a different kind of rooting—one that happens horizontally across experiences rather than vertically through generations in a single place. The connections form through shared moments rather than shared soil, through chosen affinities rather than inherited geography.
In acknowledging this state of being, I find myself part of a growing tribe of modern nomads—people who carry their sense of home internally rather than locating it externally. We’re learning to build stability within movement, to find continuity in change, and to redefine what it means to truly belong in a world that keeps spinning faster.
The irony isn’t lost on me that I write this from New Mexico—a place where the very earth seems to whisper stories of permanence. The contrast between my internal landscape and the external reality here creates a rich tension, one that fuels this ongoing exploration of identity and place.
The Declaration: I Am a Person from Nowhere
There’s a particular kind of loneliness that comes from having no geographical anchor, no patch of earth that whispers your family’s history back to you. I carry this absence like an internal compass that never finds true north, always spinning, searching for a magnetic pull that doesn’t exist. My roots don’t dig deep into any particular soil; they float just beneath the surface, ready to be pulled up and carried elsewhere at a moment’s notice.
This sense of rootlessness manifests in subtle yet persistent ways. When people ask where I’m from—a simple question for most—my mind becomes a blank map. There’s no single place I can point to and say, “This is where my story begins.” My family history reads like a series of departures rather than arrivals, a collection of places we’ve been rather than somewhere we’ve belonged. The constant through generations hasn’t been a homestead or a hometown, but rather the act of moving itself.
I think of time as a changing sea, with generations rising and falling like waves. Most families have some fixed point—a ancestral home, a town that holds their history, a landscape that shaped their identity. Mine has only the motion, the continuous journey from one place to another. There are no family graves I can visit, no childhood home that still contains echoes of my younger self, no local diner where everyone knows my name and my usual order.
This absence of geographical identity creates a peculiar form of homelessness that has nothing to do with lacking shelter and everything to do with lacking context. It’s not just about where you sleep at night, but about where your memories are stored in the physical world, where the landscape remembers you as much as you remember it.
Perhaps you recognize this feeling—that subtle disconnect when others speak passionately about their hometowns, their regional traditions, their deep connection to a particular place. There’s a vocabulary of belonging that feels foreign, a sense of being perpetually outside looking in on other people’s rooted lives. This rootlessness isn’t necessarily painful, but it does create a particular lens through which to view the world—one that recognizes the temporary nature of all attachments to place.
What’s interesting is how this rootlessness shapes perspective. Without the comfort of geographical identity, you become an observer of places rather than an inhabitant of them. You notice how people become their environments, how landscapes shape worldviews, how the very soil seems to work its way into people’s souls in places where generations have put down roots. There’s both freedom and loss in this observational position—the freedom to move without tearing anything up, but the loss of that deep, unspoken connection to a piece of the earth.
This declaration of being from nowhere isn’t a complaint so much as an observation of a particular modern condition. In an increasingly mobile world, more of us are becoming people from nowhere, carrying our sense of home within us rather than finding it in a particular longitude and latitude. It changes how we form connections, how we understand community, and how we define what it means to truly belong somewhere.
The irony isn’t lost on me that I’m writing this from a fixed location, looking out at a particular landscape. Even the rootless need to be somewhere, after all. But the difference is that this place doesn’t hold me; I’m just passing through it, adding it to the collection of places that have temporarily hosted my existence without ever truly claiming me as their own.
New Mexico: The Anchor in a Century of Change
There’s a particular quality to the light in New Mexico that feels ancient, as if the sun has been filtering through this same dry air for centuries unchanged. The landscape tells stories in layers—the ancient Pueblo dwellings carved into cliffs, the Spanish colonial missions with their thick adobe walls, the rusting remnants of Route 66 Americana. This is a place where time moves differently, where the frantic pace of modern life seems to soften at the edges, absorbed by the vastness of the desert and the steadfastness of the mountains.
What strikes me most about this land isn’t just its physical beauty, but its profound sense of continuity. Drive beyond the sprawl of Albuquerque or Santa Fe, and you enter a world where generations have worked the same soil, tended the same livestock, and drawn water from the same acequias—irrigation channels dating back to Spanish colonial times. I’ve met families whose connection to their land stretches back five hundred years, their identity so intertwined with this specific patch of earth that the question “Where are you from?” would seem absurd. They are from here, always have been, their stories written in the very terrain.
The cultural stability here creates a rhythm of life that feels both foreign and comforting to someone like me. At the local coffee shop in my small town, conversations still revolve around the monsoon rains, the price of hay, and whose relative is marrying whose. The same families appear in newspaper archives from fifty years ago, celebrating the same traditions, worrying about the same fundamental things—water, weather, community. This isn’t to romanticize the challenges of rural life, but to acknowledge the deep roots that make those challenges meaningful.
I recently visited a ranch near Española where the same family has raised cattle since the 1590s. The current owner, a man in his seventies named Miguel, showed me the land grant document from King Philip II of Spain that still hangs in his office, faded but legible. His hands, rough from decades of work, traced the boundaries on the map that remain essentially unchanged. “This land,” he told me, “it knows us. We know it. That’s enough.” That simple statement—”that’s enough”—lingered with me for days. For Miguel, identity wasn’t something to be questioned or constructed; it was as solid as the earth beneath his feet.
This rootedness manifests in countless small ways. The way people here can identify which valley someone comes from by their accent. The way recipes pass through generations unchanged, each ingredient tied to local harvests. The way the landscape itself becomes a character in family stories—this mesa where a grandfather proposed, that river where a child nearly drowned, this particular stretch of road where the coyotes sing at dusk.
The contrast with my own experience couldn’t be sharper. Where they have depth, I have breadth. Where they have continuity, I have change. Their identity comes from staying put; mine comes from movement. There’s a certain wisdom in their way of being that I admire deeply—a understanding of place that comes only through staying long enough to see the cycles repeat, through weathering droughts and floods and economic shifts without the option of leaving.
Yet this very stability also highlights my difference. My Anglo features mark me as an outsider before I even speak. My lack of familiarity with local traditions reveals itself in small moments—not knowing which saint’s day is celebrated when, or which direction to plant trees for optimal wind protection. These gaps in knowledge aren’t just practical; they’re symbolic of a deeper disconnect, a lifetime of moving through places without sinking roots.
What New Mexico teaches me daily is that rootlessness isn’t just an abstract concept—it’s the tangible absence of what exists so abundantly here: the accumulated weight of generations in one place, the comfort of known patterns, the security of belonging to a landscape that also belongs to you. This place serves as a mirror, reflecting back not just what I lack, but what’s possible when people and land grow old together.
The irony isn’t lost on me that I’m writing about permanence from a rental house, on land that isn’t mine, in a community that will likely remain somewhat foreign no matter how long I stay. Yet there’s value in witnessing this alternative way of being, this reminder that not everyone lives lightly on the earth. Some people build weight into their lives through generations of staying put, creating a counterbalance to the rootlessness that characterizes so much of modern life.
Perhaps that’s the greatest gift this place offers—not the promise of putting down my own roots, but the opportunity to understand what roots actually mean. To see firsthand how connection to place shapes identity, how history lives in the land itself, how belonging isn’t just a feeling but a practice cultivated over generations. In a world increasingly characterized by movement and change, New Mexico stands as a testament to the other possibility—that staying can be just as revolutionary as leaving.
The Permanent Outsider: Identity Guessing Game
It happens at the grocery store, at the local coffee shop, during casual conversations at community events. The question arrives with predictable regularity, often preceded by a brief visual assessment. “So, where are you from?” they ask, their tone suggesting this is the most natural opening in the world. For most people in this region, it is. For me, it’s the beginning of a familiar dance, a social ritual that never becomes comfortable.
I watch their eyes as they study my features, the light skin and Anglo characteristics that mark me immediately as not from here. Their guesses are almost always the same—California or Texas, the two states that seem to represent the default “other” in the local imagination. There’s a kindness in their curiosity, a genuine attempt to place me within their understanding of geography and identity. But each time the question comes, I feel that same internal pause, that moment of decision about how to answer something that should be simple but isn’t.
The truth is, I’m from nowhere in the way they mean it. I lack that foundational connection to place that gives the answer its weight and meaning. When people here say they’re from New Mexico, they’re not just indicating a geographical origin—they’re invoking generations of history, cultural traditions, family stories rooted in specific soil. My answer, whatever I choose to say in that moment, carries no such depth.
Sometimes I select the place where I spent the most consecutive years, though that period represents only a fraction of my life. Other times I mention where I was born, though I left too young to remember anything about it. Occasionally I offer the city where my parents currently live, though I never actually resided there myself. Each option feels like a different flavor of dishonesty, a simplification of a complex reality that doesn’t fit into casual conversation.
These interactions have become a kind of identity guessing game, one where I’m both participant and puzzle. I’ve noticed how my answer changes slightly depending on who’s asking and why. With older traditionalists, I might choose the most conservative option. With younger, more mobile professionals, I might offer a more nomadic narrative. It’s not that I’m being deliberately deceptive—I’m trying to provide an answer that makes sense within their framework of understanding, even if it doesn’t fully capture my experience.
My appearance adds another layer to this complexity. In a region where many families can trace their presence back centuries, my obvious outsider status creates an immediate categorization. People don’t just see me—they see what I represent: the recent arrival, the temporary resident, someone who likely won’t stay long enough to truly understand this place. They’re not wrong in this assessment, but the assumption carries a subtle weight, a gentle exclusion from the deeper currents of local life.
This constant negotiation of identity plays out in small moments throughout my days. When someone shares a story about their grandmother’s adobe house, passed down through five generations, I have no equivalent to offer. When conversations turn to childhood landmarks that no longer exist, my memories are from multiple cities, none of them here. I’ve become adept at listening, at asking questions that keep the focus on others’ experiences rather than my own fragmented history.
What’s fascinating is how these interactions reveal the deep connection between place and identity in this region. The question “where are you from?” isn’t small talk here—it’s a way of understanding who someone is, how they might fit into the social landscape, what shared references might exist between you. My inability to provide a straightforward answer creates a subtle barrier, a reminder that I’m operating outside the established patterns of belonging.
I’ve started to notice the other people like me, the ones who also hesitate when asked that question. We recognize each other sometimes, in the slight pause before answering, in the qualified responses that begin with “well, originally” or “most recently.” There’s a quiet understanding that passes between us, an acknowledgment that we’re navigating a world organized around roots we don’t possess.
This identity guessing game has become my constant companion, a reminder that while I can learn the roads and landscapes of this place, I’ll always carry my rootlessness with me. It’s in the way I answer questions about home, in the memories I can’t share, in the family stories that span multiple states but never settle in one. The game continues, each interaction another turn in an ongoing negotiation between who I am and where I’m from—or more accurately, where I’m not from.
The Nomadic Bloodline: Tracing America’s Internal Migration
My father’s resume reads like a cross-country road trip—Denver to Phoenix, Seattle to Miami, chasing the next newspaper job with a restlessness that now feels like inheritance. We were part of that particular American breed who treat state lines as suggestions rather than boundaries, for whom home was never a place but rather the next opportunity, the next adventure. This migratory pattern wasn’t unique to us; it was woven into the very fabric of American identity, though rarely discussed with the same gravity as international immigration.
Growing up, our moves followed a distinct rhythm dictated by the journalism industry’s fluctuations. Newspaper closures, mergers, better opportunities—each transition justified another uprooting. What seemed like normal childhood experiences—learning to make friends quickly, mastering the art of packing a bedroom in under two hours, developing the ability to adapt to new school systems mid-year—now reveal themselves as the building blocks of a particular type of American rootlessness. We weren’t immigrants between countries, but perpetual newcomers within our own.
This internal migration pattern reflects deeper economic currents shaping American society. The post-war era created a mobile workforce encouraged to follow jobs across state lines, a trend that accelerated with deindustrialization and the rise of the service economy. My family’s movement mirrored thousands of others—professionals chasing employment, families seeking better opportunities, individuals following the promise of something more, something different. This economic mobility came with hidden costs: the erosion of place-based identity, the weakening of multi-generational community ties, the constant recalibration of self that comes with each new environment.
What’s fascinating is how this experience differs from both traditional rootedness and international immigration. Unlike those with deep regional ties, we lack the stories that begin with “my family has been here since…” Unlike international immigrants, we don’t have the clear narrative of leaving one culture for another. Our displacement is subtler, often invisible until someone asks that inevitable question: “Where are you from?” and we stumble through explanations that feel simultaneously too long and insufficient.
This nomadic existence creates a peculiar relationship with geography. States become temporary waystations rather than homelands. Regional customs become performances we learn and shed rather than traditions we inherit. Accents become adaptable tools rather than markers of origin. I’ve noticed how my speech patterns subtly shift within days of arriving in a new region—a subconscious adaptation that speaks to the depth of this rootless conditioning.
Yet there’s beauty in this mobility too. It breeds a particular type of resilience, an ability to find home within oneself rather than in a specific geography. It creates individuals who can navigate difference with ease, who understand that American culture isn’t monolithic but rather a patchwork of regional identities. This perspective feels increasingly valuable in our interconnected world, where the ability to adapt and understand multiple contexts becomes crucial.
Modern technology has accelerated this trend toward rootlessness, creating what some sociologists call “digital nomadism.” The ability to work from anywhere has untethered many from geographic constraints, creating new forms of community that transcend physical location. My family’s experience feels like a precursor to this current reality—early adopters of a lifestyle that’s becoming increasingly common.
There’s a generational aspect to this story too. My father’s migrations were primarily job-driven, following established industry paths. My generation’s mobility often follows different patterns—following creative pursuits, quality of life considerations, or simply the desire for change. Yet the underlying experience of rootlessness connects across generations, creating a shared understanding among those who’ve lived this way.
This nomadic lifestyle raises fundamental questions about identity formation. When you’re constantly moving, who do you become? Without the anchoring force of place, identity becomes more self-constructed, more intentional. You learn to carry your sense of home within you, to find continuity in personal values rather than geographic stability. It’s both liberating and lonely, this self-made identity.
I’ve come to see this internal migration as its own distinct American experience, worthy of recognition alongside more traditional narratives of rootedness and immigration. It represents a different relationship with place—one based on movement rather than stability, on exploration rather than deep cultivation. Neither better nor worse, just different in its challenges and gifts.
The economic forces driving this mobility continue to shape American society. The decline of industries that once anchored communities, the rise of remote work, the increasing cost of living in traditional hubs—all these factors contribute to ongoing internal migration patterns. My family’s story represents just one thread in this larger tapestry of American movement.
What’s becoming clear is that this experience of rootlessness isn’t an anomaly but rather a growing reality for many Americans. As geographic mobility increases, more people find themselves negotiating this space between places, building identities that aren’t tied to specific locations. Understanding this experience—its challenges, its opportunities, its psychological impacts—becomes increasingly important for making sense of contemporary American life.
This nomadic heritage has given me a particular lens through which to view concepts of home and belonging. It’s taught me that roots can be carried rather than planted, that connection can transcend geography, and that identity can be fluid without being fragile. These lessons feel particularly relevant in our increasingly mobile global society, where the very definitions of home and community are evolving before our eyes.
Finding Belonging in Motion
The ache of rootlessness never fully disappears, but it does evolve into something more manageable—a familiar companion rather than a looming threat. I’ve come to understand that my search for belonging isn’t about finding one fixed point on a map, but about learning to carry home within myself while remaining open to connection wherever I happen to be.
Small rituals have become my anchors. The same coffee preparation each morning, certain music that feels like home regardless of geography, maintaining video calls with friends who’ve become chosen family across multiple time zones. These micro-traditions create continuity amid constant change. They’re not about recreating the deep generational roots I observe in New Mexico, but about building my own portable version of stability.
I’ve learned to find belonging in moments rather than places. The shared laugh with a stranger who becomes a temporary friend, the familiar weight of my favorite book in hand, the particular quality of afternoon light that somehow feels like home no matter where I witness it. These transient connections may not have the permanence of multi-generational land stewardship, but they accumulate into their own kind of richness.
My identity has shifted from being from somewhere to being of many places. Each location leaves its mark—a phrase picked up here, a food preference there, a particular way of seeing the world absorbed from people I’ve met along the way. This patchwork identity sometimes feels fragile compared to the solid cultural identity I see around me in New Mexico, but it’s also remarkably resilient. When one thread frays, others hold.
I’ve stopped seeing my rootlessness as a deficiency and started viewing it as a particular way of engaging with the world. The constant newcomer status that once felt like a burden now offers fresh perspectives. Without automatic belonging anywhere, I must consciously build connection wherever I am. This intentional approach to community, while exhausting at times, has led to unexpectedly deep relationships formed quickly out of mutual recognition between fellow travelers.
Technology has transformed the experience of rootlessness. Where my father’s newspaper jobs meant writing letters that took weeks to arrive, I maintain daily connections across continents. This digital tethering creates a strange simultaneity—being fully present in one place while maintaining active presence elsewhere. It’s not the same as physical rootedness, but it offers its own form of connection that previous generations of nomads couldn’t imagine.
I’ve developed what I think of as situational belonging—the ability to find home in bookstores, certain types of cafes, parks, or libraries wherever I am. These institutions provide instant familiarity across geographies. The smell of books, the particular quiet of a library, the ritual of ordering coffee—these become portable touchstones of belonging that don’t require being from anywhere specific.
My relationship with New Mexico has taught me that belonging can be partial and still meaningful. I may never be from here in the way that matters locally, but I can be of here while I’m here. I can appreciate the depth of connection others have to this land without needing to possess it myself. There’s a certain freedom in being able to appreciate deeply without needing to claim ownership.
I’ve come to value what I call elastic identity—the ability to stretch to encompass new influences while maintaining core values. This flexibility feels particularly necessary in our rapidly changing world. The people I’ve met who struggle most with rootlessness are often those trying to maintain rigid identities formed in places they no longer inhabit. Learning to let identity evolve with location has been crucial.
Practical strategies help. I maintain a small box of items that always make a new space feel like mine—a particular blanket, photographs that travel well, a few books I’ve read multiple times. These aren’t valuable objects, but they’re saturated with personal meaning that transfers across geography. They create instant familiarity in unfamiliar spaces.
I’ve learned to ask different questions. Instead of “Where are you from?” which often leads to awkward exchanges, I ask “What places have been important to you?” or “Where do you feel most yourself?” These invitations to share experiences rather than claim origins lead to more interesting conversations and often reveal fellow travelers I might otherwise have missed.
There’s an unexpected gift in rootlessness—the ability to see multiple perspectives without automatic allegiance to any particular one. This panoramic viewpoint feels increasingly valuable in our polarized times. Not being from anywhere in particular means I can listen to conflicting viewpoints without feeling personally threatened in my identity.
I’ve made peace with the fact that my experience of belonging will always be different from what I observe in places like New Mexico. It’s more chosen than inherited, more built than given, more flexible than fixed. But it’s no less real for being constructed. The connections I make may not have generations behind them, but they have depth and intention within them.
Perhaps what I’m building isn’t roots but something more like rhizomes—horizontal connections that spread across geographies rather than digging deep in one place. This network of people, places, and experiences forms its own kind of foundation, one that supports movement rather than demanding stability.
I’ve stopped thinking of home as a place I’m from and started thinking of it as a quality of connection I can create anywhere. The feeling of being understood, of sharing values, of mutual care—these can happen in many locations. This perspective doesn’t eliminate the longing for deeper roots, but it makes the present experience richer and more meaningful.
In the end, my strategy is simple: be fully where I am while maintaining connection to where I’ve been and remaining open to where I might go next. This triple awareness creates a rich tapestry of belonging that isn’t dependent on any single location. It’s not the traditional way of being in the world, but it’s my way—and I’m learning to appreciate its particular beauties and challenges.
Finding Home in Motion
Rootlessness no longer feels like a deficiency but a different way of being. That constant searching I once viewed as a lack—the inability to claim any single place as home—has gradually revealed itself as a different kind of connection. Not to soil or street names or local histories, but to movement itself, to the spaces between destinations, to the people who understand what it means to carry your sense of place within you rather than expecting to find it waiting at any particular coordinates.
This realization didn’t arrive as a sudden epiphany but accumulated through small moments: noticing how my childhood memories span six different states without hierarchy, how I can find comfort in airport terminals as readily as in stationary homes, how my closest friendships have maintained their depth across continents and time zones. The very quality that made me feel disconnected from the rooted residents of New Mexico has become my connection to an increasingly mobile world.
Perhaps belonging in our era looks less like putting down roots and more like learning to carry soil with you—collecting pockets of home from each place, each person, each experience until you’ve assembled a portable homeland that exists independent of geography. The Nuevomexicanos I admire for their deep connection to this land have something precious, unquestionably. But those of us who’ve learned to find home in motion have discovered something else: that identity can be built not from staying put but from carrying forward, not from digging deep in one place but from weaving connections across many.
This doesn’t resolve the occasional loneliness or the complicated answer to “Where are you from?” It doesn’t make holiday seasons less confusing or family traditions easier to maintain. But it reframes these challenges not as failures to achieve a stable identity but as natural aspects of a different way of belonging—one that’s increasingly common in our interconnected world.
The need to redefine belonging feels urgent now, not just for those of us who’ve lived this mobility but for a culture increasingly characterized by movement. As more people experience dislocation—whether by choice, necessity, or circumstance—our understanding of what it means to belong must expand beyond geographical permanence. We need narratives that validate finding home in communities of choice rather than communities of origin, in shared values rather than shared zip codes, in digital connections as well as physical ones.
What I’ve come to understand is that my rootlessness isn’t the absence of something but the presence of a different relationship to place—one that’s more about networks than nests, more about routes than roots. The question shifts from “Where are you from?” to “What do you carry with you?” and “Who travels with you?” The answers become more interesting, more layered, more revealing of who we’ve chosen to become rather than simply where we began.
This perspective doesn’t erase the challenges of mobile living—the grief of leaving, the effort of rebuilding, the constant goodbyes—but it surrounds them with meaning. Each departure becomes part of a larger pattern of connection rather than just loss. Each new place offers not just another address but another layer of understanding about how people everywhere create home under different circumstances.
I sometimes wonder if the next generation will find this easier, having never known a world where most people lived and died within miles of their birthplace. They might develop new ways of measuring connection that have less to do with longitude and latitude and more to do with resonance and relationship. They might answer “Where are you from?” with lists of influences rather than locations, with networks rather than nations.
For now, I’m learning to embrace both the freedom and the fragility of this way of living. There’s beauty in knowing that home isn’t a place I might lose but something I carry and continually recreate. There’s strength in developing the resilience to start over multiple times. There’s depth in relationships that maintain their meaning across distance and time.
Maybe the ultimate belonging isn’t about being from somewhere but about being going somewhere—together. Maybe home isn’t where we’re from but where we’re heading, and who we’re becoming along the way. This ongoing exploration continues to shape my understanding of identity, community, and what it means to be rooted in an age of movement. The conversation continues, and I welcome you to join it—wherever you’re from, and wherever you’re going.
